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New Years Resolutions

Travel

“I’m not sure what I’ll do, but-well, I want to go places and see people. I want my mind to grow. I want to live where things happen on a big scale.” -F. Scott Fitzgerald

Each year my goal is to grow, learn, and see all that I can. Sometimes I think that I’ve become more immature, lost knowledge, and seen the exact same things as the last year. But my goal still remains the same.

2014.

I learned a lot, forgot a lot.

Broke some stuff, made some stuff.

Said goodbye to some friends,……..didn’t introduce myself to any new friends.

The Office

Knitted more than was good for me.

Partay.

Struggled with some stuff.

Surprise, I’m an introvert.

The whole going to drivers ed for 4 hours every day with 64 teenagers was a new kind of hell. It brought me to tears every day and then on one fun day….I hurled.

On my special shirt too.

Turtleneck

Many road trips revived my love for travel and my desire to see the world.

See the World

I read a lot.

At least I tried to expand my reading list beyond young adult fiction.

But no matter how hard I tried to enjoy The Scarlett Letter I couldn’t help thinking…”Good gosh woman, MOVE TO A DIFFERENT TOWN….idiot.”

I listened to a ton of music and found my place in the 70s with a little 80s rock thrown in. I found that I really don’t enjoy most modern music so the classic jams of Kansas, Stevie Wonder, Willie Nelson, Johnny Cash, Merle Haggard, Simon and Garfunkal and many many others kept me company. 🙂

I started my own business and have done pretty well for myself.

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I have not decided on what to do after high school, I have no clue who Fidel Castro is and I have never seen the movie “Flubber.”

But other than that I’d say I’ve learned a lot, seen a bunch, and found many things that I enjoy.

A few people have asked me this year what I want to be when I grow up.

Award for the worst question ever.

I have no idea. The options list has gone anywhere from fashion consultant to joining the marines.

I feel like I’d be a great sniper.

Anyway, the only things that I can see in my future are these,

  • I will be a person who is not ashamed to share her faith.
  • I will be someone who takes risks.
  • Someone who shares what she feels when it’s hard.
  • I will be someone who makes a lot of mistakes.
  • I will probably not be a very good lady.
  • I will probably not be a very good follower.
  • I will not be afraid to stand up for what is right.
  • I will learn to love God with my mind.
  • I will go on adventures.
  • I will seize every moment, every opportunity.
  • And I will learn to love every moment of life.

These are my New Years Resolutions.

2015, come at me bro.

~Susanna

 

 

 

 

 

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A lesson for my future.

Recently I had the opportunity to share at a women’s Christmas dinner. I was asked to talk about what I had learned this past year through the Women’s meetings at my church.

Come once more into my truth circle.

Robert Downey Jr

I hate public speaking.

And I double hate sharing any type of personal feelings with large groups of women.

So, here I was about to do both. I was petrified. But I knew I needed to share what God had told me to say. So I put on my inspiration suit and took the plunge.

Epic.

And because I feel like God wants me to share it on here, I’ll tell you what I said.

I’ve learned a lot this past year and these women’s fellowships have played a huge part. This is the time in my life when I’m learning who I am and who I would like to be someday. I’ve grown up, am growing up, in a great home where marriage is upheld as the beautiful thing that it is. But being the second-born daughter that I am, because the expectations were for me to get married someday and because my sister wanted to, naturally I did not. But then what had begun as just a rebellious idea grew into a reality. I didn’t want to get married, I didn’t ever want to be a mom.

This fact kinda terrified.

I felt like a disappointment to my family and especially my parents. I was angry and really confused towards God. I wondered why I wasn’t like other girls. It wasn’t that I didn’t feel attracted to guys or that I never had crushes…I did. I just couldn’t picture myself in any type of lasting relationship. So all of this I was trying to sort through while going to women’s fellowships, and at first I thought that going to talks about staying pure for your future husband and being content in waiting for marriage were pointless when it came to me. Why would any of that ever matter? But then God changed how I viewed them, all of a sudden they weren’t just talks preparing me for marriage, they were instructions on how to better develop my character and relationship with God. I realized that I wasn’t called to be married or single, or widowed. I was called to love the Lord with all my heart, soul and mind and to put him above everything else.

Suddenly, I didn’t have to worry about my future because I knew that as long as I loved God, whether married or single, I would not be inadequate. Up until then I had believed that every good christian girl gets married and has a bunch of kids…and if you didn’t then you wouldn’t fulfill God’s calling to women. God has been showing me this year that that just isn’t true. For this upcoming year then, instead of spending time worrying about the future I hope to begin developing the qualities that every woman should have: kindness, humility, self-discipline, unconditional love, honesty and above all, a heart trained on worshiping the Lord.

Obviously right after I said these things I thought, “oh crud. Now I really have to work these qualities…not just talk about learning them.”

I know that I have a long way to go until I’m good at those things but I’m willing to try.

Merry Christmas All!

Hakuna Matata,

Ciao baby! 😉

~Susanna

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